Missing Home: When a Loved One is Overwhelmed

Tears drown words. They choke out in an ocean deep. I ache in helpless feeling empathy. These waves are so high. The skyline is lost and the NOW is all that can be seen, felt, struggled with. I feel so far away on this shore and pray with outstretched hands "if she must be consumed, Lord let it be with You."

"Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;

all your waves and breakers have swept over me."

~Psalm 42:7

With all my strength I throw out the Life Saver. I remember when I was rescued from a similar storm. I shout to her soul of His faithfulness. It is right that endings are painful, it makes sense that we grieve them. "We are eternal beings with temporary vision."

We are eternal beings. We are designed for happily ever after. And we will have it! But it is not now. And now is so hard.

I hug her through prayer. I know Jesus' arms can reach her. He gives the best hug because He doesn't let go. There is no awkward length in hugging Him. The Love of her life holds her in the embrace that never has to end. There is such relief of being held by Him with whom there is no ending! Ever.

"It is so important to speak truth more often than you say anything else..." our spirits respond to the words that come out of our mouths.

"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD."

~ Psalm 27:13-14

"Surely God is my help; the LORD is the one who sustains me."

~Psalm 54:4

"But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things."

~Philippians 3:7-8

"if anyone speaks, he should do it as speaking the very words of God."

~1 Peter 4:11

"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. "

~Psalm 42:5-6

She breathes in His breath and is calmed. He is certainty. He is hope. He is unchanging. He is her future.

I ask when she can come home, we all love her so much here. Soon, hopefully. I know that even when she does, the ache will not completely go away, but we will do our best to comfort.

"Our citizenship is in heaven."

~Philippians 3:20.

That is the Home all of our longings point toward. This is one of those days we just miss Home!

Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.

~2 Corinthians 5:1-9

Vision blurs. Tears are cleansing and not to be held back.

Be Thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart
Nought be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light

Be Thou my wisdom, and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me Lord
Thou my great Father and I Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling and I with Thee one

Riches I need not, nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and Thou only first in my heart
High king of heaven my treasure Thou art

Be Thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart
Nought be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light

High king of heaven, my victory won
May I reach heaven's joy, bright heaven sun
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
Still be my vision, oh ruler of all

Still be my vision, oh ruler of all.